Snowing in Pear Orchard

what’s love

Ray — Fri, 04 Apr 2008 10:08:45 +0000

what the hell is the love?someone get crazy about it,someone cries over and over again for it,someone even sacrifices its life.
when there’s no love,I always madly look forward to it,always thought falling in love with someone and then leaving with lots of pain,it would be a necessary and impartant experiance,the impartant is I ever was in love.every time,when I saw ppl around me got hurt badly by the love,I often looked down upon them,always thought they were not tough,it’s not worth it,just let them know let by bygones be bygones,I thought it wouldn’t be that hard,at least,I thought I would be tough enough.And then friends always thought I was tough,I was a very sane person.
when I am older and older,I am alone in a city,struggling for my carrer,suddenly,I found my room was so empty,I was no longer satisfied with having fun being alone,so then something happened.
friends always said I was so kind that I would get hurt.but I believe kindness is the best virtue of human-being,and I believed I could have infleunce on someone else.
the first relationship came soon,went easily.afterwards,I found it’s not really a relationship,the other one just loved my body,just like a butterfly falling love with a flower,it always stops on one flower for a while,and then leaves. but the flower stupidly waits for its return.day after day,the flower fades. I was just like the flower,eventually,I had a dry eyes and broken heart.
I finally sensed what’s the hurt of love.and I thought I would be tough and take it easily.
But love is just that weird stuff,I fell in love with someone else again,when I was working,walking,eating,my brain is just racing for that one,I tried not to get hurt,but things goes out of my control.
What can I do? maybe just relax.

what happened to me recently

Ray — Fri, 21 Dec 2007 12:07:05 +0000

I have to admit I am not a qualified blogger,I haven’t written anything here for about 3 months.

In the past 3 months,many things happened to me,I have changed a lot. I was always dreaming If only there were a machine which could erase some of my memory.I don’t want this memory,that brought me a lot of pains, and I quite know I will never find back the previous me any more.

I really don’t know what to say now. I’ve been through too much in the past 3 months,I cried over and over again for sth. All I can tell myself is just to move on.

A good news is I will be promoted to be the shift leader next month,I hope I can forget the pains via working hard,but sometimes,it just doesn’t work.

Tomorrow is another day !!!!

CCTV Tower

Ray — Sun, 16 Sep 2007 12:00:53 +0000

A couple of weeks ago,I went to Yuyuantan Park again. On that evening,I took several photos of CCTV Tower. I like that tower in the night,it looks beautiful. PS,it’s the fifth highest tower of the world.

Crazy Summer

Ray — Sat, 25 Aug 2007 11:32:50 +0000

I just check the the date of last post,Holy! it was released a month ago,How lazy I am!Alright,I have to write something in order to tell my friends I am still alive
In the recent month,what have I done?hmmm, no craic, actually,just working and hiding at home,going to gym,seldom hanging out with my friends because of the fucking hot weather.
In fact, the summer of Beijing is not as hot as my hometown,especially in the night,it’s usually very cool,the temperature is just around 23 degrees celsius. In my hometown Hefei,which is located on the south of China,it’s often so hot in the day time in July and August,the temperature is up to 36 degrees celsius frequently,and sometimes 38 degrees.That’s why my skin is a little dark In the night,the temperature is still around 28 degrees celsius, it’s really torture if you don’t have air-condition at home.
Several days ago,my supervisor conversed with me on the plan for the future.I don’t exactly know I will do in the future,time changes so fast,and I find I am not really into computer in which field I am working.I figure I will never be excellent at the computer,I don’t like being stuck by the computer,staring at computer for long.I am near-sighted,btw, almost 700 degrees.I always think the computer caused this.Well,what can I do?I thought it over and over again,it’s still pending.Many people used to say I am suitable for being a salesman,because I look very sociable and accessible.Do I? But I don’t feel like doing that work,because I am a lazy guy,I am afraid of getting sunbathe.If I work as a salesman,I will probably go to other place for business,I don’t like that lifestyle. What can I do? I might learn Network technology and get a CCNA, CCNP certifications in order to get a nicer work and get well paid in a foreign company. Maybe I will study that course at a study hall at University which is near to my apartment during my free time since I can never focus on study at home. Well,I am still sitting on the fence what I will study and what I will do in the future,I will wait and see.

My photos

Ray — Sun, 22 Jul 2007 18:44:05 +0000

Here are some photos I shot in the restroom when I was working last night.

New Camera

Ray — Mon, 16 Jul 2007 15:15:09 +0000

I bought a new camera this morning,it’s really of good quality and not so expensive.

Here are some photos I shot this noon. Because I hadn’t been familiar with the operations of it,so I just kept it on auto when I shot these photos.

I’m quite sure I will be able to take much more beautiful photos when I master it.

A Gift From A Bank

Ray — Sun, 08 Jul 2007 09:54:07 +0000

This afternoon I went to a bank to open a credit card account,luckily I got a pencil vase for free,it’s very lovely,isn’t it?

Don’t Feel Like Sleeping Early On Weekend

Ray — Sat, 07 Jul 2007 15:59:34 +0000

If I don’t feel like sleeping so that early at weekends,what can I do?I ask myself again and again.
Because of work,I don’t keep regular hours,and always live in a chaos,even on the day shift,I often stay up late,surfing on the internet,with a cup of water by the computer,listening to sorta sad music with a couple of earphones in my ears.In general,I won’t hit the sack until 1am.
Here another weekend comes again,friends invited me to bars several times,I refused.I have kicked the habit of bars,and now I live out of the 5th ring road,the last subway train has finished its last mission early at 23:30,the high taxi fare of Beijing nearly rips my purse off.
Recently I am already not original me,I am sick of being stuck at home and reading books.My head hasn’t caught up with the steps of the times,I am feeling I am lacking in self-improvement badly.Absurdly,I am afraid of reading,fearing the time has passed silently during my reading,however I haven’t enjoyed it yet.
The crowd has disappeared,the familiar people are missing on the weekend subway trains.The same songs are flying along the cars of the subway trains,but the vagrant singers have changed.
I am already 24 years old,getting older and older.

Aching all over

Ray — Tue, 26 Jun 2007 11:04:53 +0000

I am aching all over now,cuz I played pingpong last afternoon for 2 hrs with my friends.
Almost every chinese can play pingpong, so our national pingpong team’s kept ahead in the world for years.
Last night,I was on the night shift,I didn’t write english words,because I felt very uncomfortable and drained.After coming back home this morning,I jumped to sleep right now.I thought I would get up at 3 pm,but when my alarm clock rang at 3 pm,I was still aching all over badly,my butt,my legs,my arm,and my head all ached.Eventually,I got up at 6 pm,I was still feeling I couldn’t move an inch because of my painful butt.Anyhow,I had to get out for dinner,for I didn’t want to cause stomachache.
How tough the life is.

Blocked

Ray — Tue, 26 Jun 2007 10:38:14 +0000

This spot’s blocked by China great firewall,anyhow,I won’t move to other places,I am really sick of moving.Maybe it will be unblocked tomorrow,I will wait and see.