If I don’t feel like sleeping so that early at weekends,what can I do?I ask myself again and again.
Because of work,I don’t keep regular hours,and always live in a chaos,even on the day shift,I often stay up late,surfing on the internet,with a cup of water by the computer,listening to sorta sad music with a couple of earphones in my ears.In general,I won’t hit the sack until 1am.
Here another weekend comes again,friends invited me to bars several times,I refused.I have kicked the habit of bars,and now I live out of the 5th ring road,the last subway train has finished its last mission early at 23:30,the high taxi fare of Beijing nearly rips my purse off.
Recently I am already not original me,I am sick of being stuck at home and reading books.My head hasn’t caught up with the steps of the times,I am feeling I am lacking in self-improvement badly.Absurdly,I am afraid of reading,fearing the time has passed silently during my reading,however I haven’t enjoyed it yet.
The crowd has disappeared,the familiar people are missing on the weekend subway trains.The same songs are flying along the cars of the subway trains,but the vagrant singers have changed.
I am already 24 years old,getting older and older.